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 Hi y'all and Happy New Year!!!

I promise my blog isn't only a "highlights of the year" blog, since all I've posted the last few years is just that....... I have a bunch of different post ideas and one of my goals for this year is to post something once a month 🥴 Maybe I should start with once a quarter, at least then I can have some small wins. Gotta start somewhere!

I've had this blog since the start of my online journey and to some degree, it feels like a very public diary. So sorry blog and blog readers for not being as diligent here. But New Year, new opportunity to get back on track.

I'm trying to think what will be meaningful for me to read about in 5 years, to summarize 2020. Obviously, 2020 was a rough year - for the entire globe and I am grateful that parts of my life were "unaffected" by the pandemic. I kept my job but was constantly on edge that I would be part of the next RIF. Because of the previous RIFs, work has been so crazy hectic and I recognize that a large part of my self-worth, I put into work and whether I feel I'm doing well at it or not. A lot of the time, I feel like I could have done something more, I could have performed better, etc. 

But this year, I had to be more gentle with myself and acknowledge that 2020 was a year of craziness, of unprecedented times (hehe). Perhaps I was performing at the best I could give, given the situations, the lack of resources, the need to be agile, my personal life, not being around many people other than Mike and Juicy, etc. 

If you've been following along my journey on YouTube or Instagram, you'll know some of the personal life challenges from this year. In a nutshell, my stepdad lost both of his siblings to COVID this year. My papa and stepmom got COVID but luckily they both have recovered, although it is very scary when family has to be hospitalized. We aren't able to visit them in hospital so it's a very stressful time.

Also, this past year, Juicy's health has taken a small dip. Her tracheal collapse got worse earlier this year so she now takes cough medicine regularly and we have a little homemade oxygen bed to help her through her tougher episodes (much cheaper than rushing to the ER, which I did many times in the beginning). She also has lost most of her eyesight so needs more help getting around. It's been challenging but the silver lining is that it happened once I started working from home, so I am grateful to be here with her. Who knows if it was happening before but since I'm home with her, I see it much more. More on this topic later in the highlights.

Even through the tough times, there have been highlights of the year and those are the ones I'd like to remember most. Life will always have tougher moments but they make the good moments more meaningful.